hurt.

hurt.

a simple four-lettered word, right?
wrong.
it's so much more than that.
especially if it's on purpose.

to hurt someone, physically or mentally, is stupid and wrong.

i'm not perfect.
i have hurt people intentionally before and i usually regret it soon after.
the point of this isn't to point fingers and say "you're a horrible person, i'm wonderful."
no.

the point of this is to show you how much people hurt others.

instance one: dissing
i'm sorry to say i'm good at this one.
i've been "the queen of disses", as some put it a few years ago, for about two years.
sarcastic comments, dry humor, insulting comments; that's what i did and still do sometimes.
and i feel bad about it.
i'm not promising i'm stopping because i won't. sadly it's just who i am, but i've learned to control it most of the time.
however, some keep going.
they kick you, and kick you, and kick you until your breaking point and then pretend like nothing happened.
you're left in the dirt desperately grabbing your sides trying to stop the pain and bleeding and theyre out with they're "other friends".

instance two: ego
a word commonly thrown around between my friends.
however i don't think people understand how pain that word causes.
people think they're better than others everyday.
people think they have better things than others everyday.
people think they have better chances than others every. freaking. day.
egos suck.
people who put themselves above others by pushing them down are cold and will end up alone.

instance three: self-esteem
mine's not so wonderful.
i critisize myself constantly (see what i did right there?)
i always search for flaws (i have a zit, my bangs aren't perfectly straight, ect.)
but people who fish for compliments are a whole other situation.
people who complain about how low their self esteem is and are constantly complaining about their looks to large groups of people are just waiting for someone to say "oh no you're not!" or "are you kidding me? you're gorgeous!"
heads up; you're lucky we're here to fake that sympathy, cause you won't get that in life.

now what happens when you put these together?
you get a fight.

now, friends help you.
they drop everything they have just to help you with your screwed up, twisted life/problems.
some WAY more than others!
friends sit next to you at lunch and smile at you even when they really just want to slap you in the face and never talk to you again.
they stand by you.

however what friends DON'T do is purposefully and intentionally hurt you.
last time i checked, friendship-not even friendship but common courtesy!- was more important than petty thoughts.
if you're jealous of someone; suck it up. wanna know a secret? complaining about it and trying to take-over their life won't get you anywhere, hun. sorry!
if you want something that someone else has; odds that everyone will side with the other because she's not being a self-centered, egotistical bitch is so high pluto says hello.
if you you're being bitchy about something; heads up, they won't like you. it doesn't make them respect you and it doesn't make them like you, it makes everyone else hate you.
get it?

so next time you run around telling others to shut up, back off, step aside, watch out, bring it on, or any of that crap, remember who you're saying it to.
you're not telling off some horrible people; you're being an idiotic moron to the people who care about you and hurting them out of jealousy, pettiness, or anything else is stupid.

want a life lesson? how about the golden rule? treat others the way you want to be treated.
do YOU want to be hurt like that?
because i know i don't.
you're not impressing us by "standing up for yoursef", you're pushing us away with your attitude.